Final Draft

it's a big world

with welcoming beckoning of the hand

and many many more things to do

내가 원하기보다

남이 원하게 하면

일이 술술 풀려버린다

and I know you have your reasons for not being able to give what I need, it's perfectly reasonable, perfectly rational, and it makes a complete sense to me too -

but all these years after, I find myself saying the exact same thing to you:

I wish you believed in me

I know when you don't believe in me

So I fucking wish you believed in me

I wish you were just absolutely convinced, senseless, irrational, unreasonable, superstitious, and probably obnoxious but still just absolutely convinced that I was meant for this.

in the end, I wish you had more confidence in the choices I made - because, as you know, this was one of the only choice I ever made for myself by myself and according to myself.

or would it be faster if I just looked for another person that believed in me as unreasonably as I wanted.

is not so that one can avoid blame

but because the overwhelming amount of love, care, and respect from all directions and in all kinds of ways that one receives when one does good

is really addictive.

to cutthroat competitiveness;

if my happiness has to come from others' misery, that's not really happiness at all