Final Draft

It's true I really am

I'm so afraid that I am just standing right here on the edge of your ocean 

while the tides come in and the sands slowly bury me in stinging cold water

I'm afraid that if I get out now I will lose my way and never know my way back to you

and I'm afraid that if I get in now I will be swept in the tide and never find the air above again

but I thought

now that I know that I am afraid

maybe I should ask for some courage within me to leave you

leave you completely and forget about you entirely

no I will not say such petty excuses like

that I'm leaving you because I care for you too much,

or because you and I can be the happiest in the future this way

and I will not leave such irresponsible promises like

that I'll be able to return to you

and that this is the fastest and surest way to come back to you

All I can promise you is my sincerity right now

and that it will cripple us if I don't leave now

and I know that's not good enough at all

yet I am leaving still

leaving before this turns into a tragedy

so help me leave and get mad at me

spit on me and curse at me

tell me you never needed someone like me anyway

so you can forget me too