how much it hurts
to practice no expectations
just seeing you get lost, confused, make useless friends and indulge in useless things
because I still believe you have to be more than that.
a.
different kinds
different kinds of life,
different kinds of thought,
different kinds of experiences
and different kinds of act.
with all that variance, it's really questionable what we're agreeing to anyway...
alone, alone, alone -
yes, people can be delightful sometimes,
but they can also be very tiring..
oh but please 2
on the other hand -
I do not believe that the same processes and system as the ones I use are in place for you; so I cannot trust your words when you say the same thing I say.
if you do not match me behaviourally, no matter what you say, I will not grant you the same right I grant myself.
oh but please
what do you know about me anyway? what do you know about how I feel, how I think, what I see and what I believe? I've taken this long to get to know myself and I still cannot confidently say I know myself in all its entirety. how can you so easily claim to know what's good for me? why should I listen to you anyway? aren't you just using my uncertainty to your advantage?
